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Why do ppl see things
Originally uploaded by AFnan Sulaiman ..❤

hi! yes! i am here, lurking in the shadows... because it's too effin' hot in the sun these days. seriously... it had to be a record-breaking May in terms of scorching temperatures. now here we are on the first day of June and it seems there is no sign of cooling off in the near future. the weatherman is predicting thunderstorms today, but said event has been in the forecast for several days now.

as if i'm blogging about the weather... do i really have nothing more interesting to say?

on the visual inspiration front, the answer is kind of no... but it isn't due to a mood or anything like that. i'm focusing on some other stuff at the moment. like getting ready to go back to school.

i decided to stop talking about it and actually do it - and last week i received my admission package to Seneca College! of course now they want money, and i'm in the process of applying for student loans... sigh... again... here's hoping i didn't reach some sort of cap back in my career-student days!

and while it sounds like i'm moaning about becoming a student again, it couldn't be further from the truth. i went to visit the campus for the first time yesterday, and i felt like i was home. just walking around the grounds made me not only nostalgic for my old university and college days, but it made me feel connected to something much greater than myself, and filled me with hope and the buzz of anticipation.

isn't it sort of funny where you find yourself? i mean... think back to yourself 10-15 years ago. are you now where you thought you would be? were you standing at a fork in a gravelly road, pondering outcomes? did you have an idea about doing something, pursuing some path, only to abandon it in favour of another direction, only to find yourself having converged back on that same old path... only this time the way is paved?

i think i have mentioned before about having been accepted to (a different) college in the same program i'm going into now, but having to withdraw due to financial restrictions. but even before that, when i was considering going back to school the first time, i had seriously considered doing the Media and Communications program at York University here in Toronto.

and yesterday, there i was on the York U campus, feeling this wonderful excitement. okay... confused? yes, i'm going to Seneca, not York. Seneca has a number of campuses across the city, and the one that houses the department of Communications and my particular program, just happens to be the Seneca@York campus - the two schools have a number of collaborative degree programs. the Technical Writing program is not collaborative with York, it just resides on the York campus. it just seems sort of... i don't know... significant. you know... not going to York to study Communications in 1998 and then not studying Technical Writing at Fanshawe in 2001, and now all these years later finding myself preparing to study Technical Writing at Seneca@York.

of course, it could all just be a coincidence.